For you... You know who.

You are my best friend.. The greatest best friend i've ever had.. And i dont want to lose you ever. I get that your tired of the demarco drama and honestly so am i, yes the past two days i have talked to him because i feel like i have no one anymore and he was there.. But i want to see and know what my life is without him.. Im trying to start over, i want to get to a good place with my amazing Father, and so far its only been a week but its been amazing journey.. I cant wait to see what the future holds but truth is i cant do it without my best friend by my side, someone to talk to about certain things, good things, struggles.. Whatever goes with starting this new life with God.. God's been trying to get my attention for so longand yes it took a huge mistake to realize this but i realized it and im doing something about it. For the first time in 23 years im reading my bible everyday, im praying more, im listening to speakers.. Its an amazing thing and i want to share it with you my best friend.. Last night i was thinking and if we're not friends, best friends, i wont have a maid of honor at my wedding, i wont have someone to share super fun things with, i wont have one of the most important person in my life.. I've been so blessed to meet you and i know you think that i'll get mad at what you have to say but you dont know that, your my best friend, i respect what you have to say.. And i've probably said it to myself a thousand times.. I love you dear friend, and i hope you read this, all the entries, you'll understand so much more..