just a dream

i wrote a few weeks ago that i had let demarco go,but i didnt truly do that until last tuesday..a week and three days ago. 

except that last night he facebook messaged me and said how much he missed me and wanted to talk to me..blah blah blah.

i wanted to talk to him, every bone in my body did..and i did, but we ended up in an argument and he deleted me from facebook, well he ended up readding me but still.. 

i love him lots, theres no doubt about it, but i cant let him keep doing this to me.. i need time and space from him, which he ended up seeming mad about, but doesnt he want me to move on? like i just dont understand him..

however, i just dont know what to do anymore because i do love him and want to be with him..but its all just a dream.

blessed

these five girls have blessed me immensely during the past 8 weeks. and i hope i have done the same for them.
its  no secret that 5 star makes me miss summer and being at camp, but at least  i still have the opportunity to love on these five girls. 
each one of them has shown me something and i love each one unconditionally. i was blessed by these girls this season and i cant wait for the coming seasons with them. 
so January hurry up and get here because im going to miss spending my monday afternoons with them. :)